2002 August archive

Fri, 30 Aug 2002 18:56:24

| Friday 30th August 2002 18:56CDT | → 0 Comments |

Left Milwaukee early yesterday (’early’ as in before I planned to leave, which was to be Sunday).

I’m currently back in Madison. More later.

Power cut in the hotel yesterday for an hour. It’s about the most exciting thing that’s happened in Milwaukee so far. This place is no fun without a car as it’s so spread out. I’ll probably be leaving early.

I was in a restaurant the other day and, after requesting a beer, was asked for my ID! The waitress said I had a deceptively youthful face. She was probably after a good tip (which she got).

Apparently I’m an uncle again, thanks to brother and wife.

Otherwise nothing else to report. Over and out.

Wed, 28 Aug 2002 18:59:55

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Milwaukee is dull.

Sorry.

Mon, 26 Aug 2002 17:57:42

| Monday 26th August 2002 17:57CDT | → 0 Comments |

Now in Milwaukee. I decided to get here by Greyhound Bus for a mere $13, as opposed to $174 to fly. The Bus station (actually it’s a coach by they call them busses here) was directly opposite my hotel - can you beat that?

I haven’t seen much so far. It’s a lot more spread out but looks like it has some good restaurants. Later I’m going to investigate the lakefront (Lake Michigan again, if you didn’t know).

As you might have guessed I’m feeling that bit better but I don’t know how much longer I actually want to keep this up.

I even miss boyf. It’s true.

Thu, 22 Aug 2002 16:46:01

| Thursday 22nd August 2002 16:46CDT | → 0 Comments |

Feeling slightly better (i.e. less stressed) and enjoyed a few things yesterday, like the the Museum of Contemporary Art. I also sat by the lake in the sun and basically chilled.

However I still feel like I’m forcing myself to be happy, which is hard work. I think I’ll probably go to Milwaukee next week, maybe meet up with dmoney (a friend) there and fly home on the 30th. I worry about money, even though I don’t really think it’s a problem (I seem to have enough, according to my online banking).

Who knows? It may all change again when I’m there.

BTW only in the USA do you find, in McDonalds, a size above Large!

Tue, 20 Aug 2002 16:25:25

| Tuesday 20th August 2002 16:25CDT | → 0 Comments |

Here I am in Chicago, staying at a hotel on Michigan Avenue. It’s a beautiful city - I just wish I was in a better state of mind to enjoy it. I hope I hold out and decide to travel on somewhere else, though I actually think that’s unlikely.

At least here I want to do some shopping, go to the Modern Art Museum and to the top of the Sears tower (or some other one that’s tall). I plan to take nice photos and lounge around by the lake.

Oxymoronic emotions at the moment. I feel like every choice is mine but at the same time I’m trapped. Maybe that’s what depression is.

Mon, 19 Aug 2002 15:45:13

| Monday 19th August 2002 15:45CDT | → 0 Comments |

I’m going to stay in ‘downtown’ Chicago for the rest of this week (at least) and try to enjoy myself, or try to get over Boyf (who sent me an abusive email today), on the recommendation of my friends back home. Nice.

I hope the money holds out.

I’m feeling better already.

Mon, 19 Aug 2002 03:06:47

| Monday 19th August 2002 3:06CDT | → 0 Comments |

It’s over. I’ve left him for good now. After promising, he got drunk and abusive yet again and even started becoming violent towards me (which is why I left while he was asleep, as that’s when he gets the most aggressive). I’m flying home tomorrow (if BA customer service ever answer the phone!).

I’ve been such a fool to let this go on for so long. I thought he would change but I guess alcohol and his self-centered nature were more to him than I was.

It’s just been so scary and depressing. I hope I can avoid a nervous breakdown. I will be staying with my mother for the duration as I can’t face going back to work.

Is there someone out there who wants to know me for who and what I am, rather than what they want me to be? I hope it’s so.

Sat, 17 Aug 2002 17:09:44

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We’ve been getting along quite well, though I haven’t yet worked out whether we’re just tip-toeing around each other. Boyf hasn’t freaked out or even shouted (much). We have just come back from the Farmer’s Market which was enjoyable, if crowded.

Latest knowledge: given that here they call jam ‘jelly’, today I learned they do call it jam when the seeds are left in.

Two weeks gone - nine left (approximately).

Fri, 16 Aug 2002 14:14:21

| Friday 16th August 2002 14:14CDT | → 0 Comments |

Back in Madison (I didn’t even stay one night in the hotel). We’re going to give it another try. I only hope Boyf recognises how this hurts me as much as it hurts him.